It's been a difficult few weeks for me. I've really been struggling physically. I went to the doctor last month and they went ahead and started me on thyroid meds and I'm supposed to go this week and have some more blood work done to see where my numbers are. It's been incredibly difficult getting trough each day. I have never felt so weak and exhausted in my life. I haven't been able to do my workouts like I normally could, although with the meds I've been able to get back to about 3 days a week for at least 15 or 20 minutes so I'm working on it. I know I'll get better and that it just takes time and patience.

Also this Friday is Pax's cardiology appointment. I've been catching myself getting anxious about it wondering where his numbers are. But I was reminded this week that God has already healed Pax according to His Word and all we have left to do is stand and rejoice and thank and praise God for it. I was working out today and this song by Britt Nicole came on called "Stand" and it really hit home for me. It really lifted me today so I thought I'd share the lyrics.

I wake up to another day
I don't know if I can face
All the fears that are staring me down
Yeah, I'm trying to be brave
But I'm a thread about to fray
I want to stand, but I don't know how
I look U-UP!
and all I see is Your love holding me

When I feel like giving up
When my heart has hurt too much
Feels like i've reached the end
No, I won't turn and run
This battle will be won
When I've done all I can
I stand, stand, stand
I stand, stand, stand

Some days I lose my place
It's a fight to keep my faith
But, You are with me
I am not alone, noooo
When all around my world gives way
Tossed like an ocean wave
You are my rock when the storm clouds blow
I look up
And all I see is Your love holding me

When I feel like giving up
When my heart has hurt too much
Feels like i've reached the end
No, I won't turn and run
This battle will be won
When I've done all I can
I stand, stand, stand
I stand, stand, stand

On Your promise, I will stand
All other ground is sinking sand

On Your promise, I will stand
All other ground is sinking sand
Sinking sand
Oh woah,
It's sinking, sinking,
Yea yeah, yeah

When I feel like giving up
When my heart has hurt too much
Feels like i've reached the end
No, I won't turn and run
This battle will be won, yeahhhh

So I'll stand, stand, stand,
I stand, stand, stand
I stand, stand, stand